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The Daily Man-Up

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"As I gain followers I’ve found it’s important to make sure everyone knows what I am about. People swing by my page for different reasons with different expectations and you’re all welcome. That being said please know, among my others interests and passions, first, foremost and unequivocally I am a bowhunter. I train everyday for one reason, to be the most effective bowhunter I can possibly be. Being “effective” as a bowhunter means when I head out on a hunt, from the plains to the mountains, my goal is to harvest an animal. “Harvest” means kill it with an arrow. So, yes there will be photos of dead animals on this page (from grizzly bear to bull elk), but with the death of my quarry life is sustained and just maybe souls are enriched by this powerful illustration of the circle of life? I know mine is. All the meat from the animals I kill goes to my to freezer and feeds either me, my friends, my family or is donated to a homeless shelter to feed those that need it more than me. And, their antlers, hides and skulls are displayed in my home to honor their life and memory of the hunt. If this makes me a “trophy hunter” so be it. I feel respect for the animals I hunt and I feel empowered and more “alive” than any other time in my life as I roam the country they call home with a bow in my hand and a sharp knife on my belt. If the fact that I am an ethical and merciful hunter and share in my complete journey as a hunter, including the kill and butchering of this beautifully organic harvest, bothers you please leave. If you’re here as a lifelong hunter or a new hunter who like me takes self-sufficient ownership over the death of the animals I eat, welcome."

Cameron Hanes

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Chilling Last Words From Pilots Of Crashing Planes

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Vladivostokavia Airlines, Flight 352

The plane crashed and exploded in flames in Siberian woodlands near the village of
Burdakovka, about 21 miles from Irkutsk. The aircraft crashed during the third turn in
a landing approach to Irkutsk, an intermediate stop for refueling. The first officer was
flying the plane, when at 2,600 ft., an audible alarm sounded indicating a wide angle of 
attack. Eleven seconds later the aircraft swung around 180 degrees and entered a flat
spin. The captain ordered the engines at full throttle but it was too late and 22 seconds
later the plane hit the ground, belly first, broke up and burned. Incorrect actions of the
crew. Due to poor communication between pilots, they put in the wrong parameters 
while landing causing the plane to descend at the wrong angle. As a result, the plane
stalled and entered a spin and crashed. All 145 aboard killed. 

02:07:53 CAP  … Fuck, push it up! (throttles)
02:07:53 F/O  Stop! Stop! Where! Where!
02:07:55 CAP  Stop! Stop! Stop! (said in patter)
02:07:55 NAV  This way, this way, this way.
02:07:57 CAP  We’re recovering!
02:07:58 NAV  Easy, make it easy, easy!
02:07:59 F/O  Lets to the right!
02:08:01  Audio tone of Radio-altitude alert (duration 4 sec) and audi
02:08:02 ??  Power! Add thrust!
02:08:05 ??  Power!
02:08:06 F/E  … got it!
02:08:08 ??  Add thrust!
02:08:09 F/O  Take off power! Oh my God!
02:08:10 F/E  Take off power set
02:08:11 ??  That’s all guys! Fuck!

 

 

Air France 447

The Airbus went missing over the Atlantic Ocean on a flight from Rio de Janeiro, Brazil to Paris, France. 
The last radio contact with the flight was at 01:33 UTC. The aircraft left CINDACTA III radar coverage at 
01:48 UTC, flying normally at FL350. The aircraft reportedly went through a thunderstorm with strong
turbulence at 02:00 UTC. At 02:14 UTC an automated message was received indicating a failure of the
electrical system. The plane carried 12 crew members and 216 passengers. The wreckage was finally
discovered on April 3, 2011 using unmanned submarines. Flight447 passed into clouds associated with
a large system of thunderstorms, its speed sensors became iced over, and the autopilot disengaged.
In the ensuing confusion, the pilots lost control of the airplane because they reacted incorrectly to the
loss of instrumentation and then seemed unable to comprehend the nature of the problems they had 
caused. 

02:11:45 (Bonin)

We’ve lost control of the plane! 

02:11:47 (Robert) We’ve totally lost control of the plane. We don’t understand at all… We’ve tried everything. 
 

[By now the plane has returned to its initial altitude but is falling fast. With its nose pitched 15 degrees up, and a forward speed of 100 knots, it is descending at a rate of 10,000 feet per minute, at an angle of 41.5 degrees. It will maintain this attitude with little variation all the way to the sea. Though the pitot tubes are now fully functional, the forward airspeed is so low—below 60 knots—that the angle-of-attack inputs are no longer accepted as valid, and the stall-warning horn temporarily stops. This may give the pilots the impression that their situation is improving, when in fact it signals just the reverse. 

[The captain of the flight makes no attempt to physically take control of the airplane. Had Dubois done so, he almost certainly would have understood, as a pilot with many hours flying light airplanes, the insanity of pulling back on the controls while stalled. But instead, he takes a seat behind the other two pilots.]

02:12:14 (Robert) What do you think? What do you think? What should we do? 

[As the stall warning continues to blare, the three pilots discuss the situation with no hint of understanding the nature of their problem. No one mentions the word “stall.” As the plane is buffeted by turbulence, the captain urges Bonin to level the wings—advice that does nothing to address their main problem. The men briefly discuss, incredibly, whether they are in fact climbing or descending, before agreeing that they are indeed descending. As the plane approaches 10,000 feet, Robert tries to take back the controls, and pushes forward on the stick, but the plane is in “dual input” mode, and so the system averages his inputs with those of Bonin, who continues to pull back. The nose remains high. 

02:13:40 (Robert) Climb… climb… climb… climb… 

02:13:40 (Bonin)

But I’ve had the stick back the whole time! 

 

[At last, Bonin tells the others the crucial fact whose import he has so grievously failed to understand himself.]

02:13:42 (Captain) No, no, no… Don’t climb… no, no. 

02:13:43 (Robert) 

Descend, then… Give me the controls… Give me the controls! 

[Bonin yields the controls, and Robert finally puts the nose down. The plane begins to regain speed. But it is still descending at a precipitous angle. As they near 2000 feet, the aircraft’s sensors detect the fast-approaching surface and trigger a new alarm. There is no time left to build up speed by pushing the plane’s nose forward into a dive. At any rate, without warning his colleagues, Bonin once again takes back the controls and pulls his side stick all the way back.] 

02:14:23 (Robert) Damn it, we’re going to crash… This can’t be happening! 
02:14:25 (Bonin) But what’s happening? 
02:14:27 (Captain) Ten degrees of pitch… 

Exactly 1.4 seconds later, the cockpit voice recorder stops.

 

 

Atlantic Southeast Airlines, Flight 529

Shortly after taking off from Atlanta on a flight to Gulfport, the aircraft experienced propeller 
separation in the left engine while climbing through FL 180. The aircraft crashed into trees 
and burned while trying to make an emergency landing at Atlanta. The in-flight fatigue 
fracture and separation of a propeller blade resulting in distortion of the left engine nacelle, 
causing excessive drag, loss of wing lift, and reduced directional control of the airplane. The 
fracture was caused by a fatigue crack from multiple corrosion pits that were not discovered 
by Hamilton Standard because of inadequate and ineffective corporate inspection and repair 
techniques, training, documentation and communication. Eight of 29 aboard killed.

252:11 ATLA: AC five twenty-nine, if able, change to my frequency, one one eight point seven. The airport uh, in the vicinity of your ten o’clock at twelve o’clock and about four miles or so.
1252:20 HOT-1: Help me, help me hold it, help me hold, help me hold it.
1252:56 ATLA: AC five twenty-nine, change frequency, one one eight point seven if able.
1252:32 HOT-B: Too low gear. [Warning stops.]
1252:32 HOT-B: [Series of rapid beeps similar to aural stall warning]
1252:32 CAM: [Vibrating sound similar to aircraft stick shaker starts and continues for four seconds.]
1252:36 CAM: [Vibrating sound similar to aircraft stick shaker starts again and continues to impact.]
1252:37 HOT-2: Amy, I love you.
1252:40 HOT-B: Landing gear.
1252:41 CAM-?: [Sound of grunting]
1252:45 CAM: [Sound of impact]
1252:46 HOT-B: Landing gear.
1252:46 CAM: [Sound of impact]

 

 

Pan American,  Flight 1736 / KLM, Flight 4805

Both aircraft were diverted to Tenerife because of a bombing at Las Palmas Airport. After an
extended delay, both planes were instructed to back track up the runway. The KLM plane 
reached its takeoff point while the Pan Am plane was still on the runway. The Pan Am plane 
continued up the runway missing the taxiway turnout. There was heavy fog on the runway. 
The KLM plane began its takeoff roll without permission with the Pan Am plane still on the 
runway. The KLM plane hit the Pan Am plane just as it was taking off. Both planes burst into 
flames. KLM 234 + 14 crew, Pan Am 326 + 9 crew killed.

1706:25.6 APP Roger alpha one seven three six report when runway clear.
1706:29.6 PA RT OK, we’ll report when we’re clear.
  APP Thank you
  PA CAM 1 Lets get the hell out of here!
  PA CAM 2 Yeh, he’s anxious isn’t he.
  PA CAM 3 Yeh, after he held us up for half an hour.  Now he’s in a rush.
1706:32.43 KLM CAM 3 Is he not clear then?
1706:34.1 KLM CAM 1 What do you say?
1706:34.15 KLM CAM ? Yup.
1706:34.7 KLM CAM 3 Is he not clear that Pan American?
1706:35.7 KLM-1 Oh yes. [emphatically]
1706:40   [PanAm captain sees landing lights of KLM at approximately 700 meters]
  PA CAM 1 There he is .. look at him!  Goddamn that son-of-a-bitch is coming! Get off! Get off!  Get off!
1706:44   [KLM starts rotation]
1706:47.44 KLM CAM 1 [Scream]
1706:50   [Collision]

 

 

Pacific Southwest Airlines, Flight 182

Midair collision. The PSA was descending and about to land at Lindbergh Field. The Cessna 
was climbing while engaged in practice approaches. The 727 overtook and struck the Cessna 
from the rear. The primary cause was the PSA crew lost sight of the Cessna and did not make
that fact known to the ATC. The ATC failed to realize from the PSA transmissions that they lost sight of the Cessna. One hundred thirty-five killed on the PSA, two on the Cessna and seven on the ground.

09.01:21 CAM-1 Oh yeah, before we turned downwind, I saw him about one o’clock, probably behind us now.
09.01:38 CAM-2 There’s one underneath.
09.01:39 CAM 2 I was looking at that inbound there.
09.01:45 CAM 1 Whoop!
09.01:46 CAM 2 Aghhh!
09.01:47 CAM Sound of impact
09.01:48 CAM 1 On shit!
09.01:49 CAM-1 Easy baby, easy baby.
09.01:51 CAM [sound of electrical system reactivation tone on CVR, system off less than one second]
09.01:51 CAM-1 What have we got here?
09.01:52 CAM-2 It’s bad.
09.01:53 CAM-2 We’re hit man, we are hit.
09.01:56 RDO-1 Tower, we’re going down, this is PSA.
09.01:57 TWR Okay, we’ll call the equipment for you.
09.01:58 CAM [sound of stall warning]
  CAM 1 This is it baby!
  CAM ? Bob [name of F/O]
  CAM 1 Brace yourself.
  CAM ? Hey baby..
  CAM? Ma I love you..
09.02:04 [End of recording]

 

 

LOT Polish Airlines, Flight 5055

The No. 2 engine failed, causing an engine fire, cabin decompression, damage to the No. 1
engine,loss of elevator control and damage to the electrical system. A fire in the cargo hold 
was not detected because of damage to the fire warning system. While attempting to return
to Warsaw and attempting a turn to land, the aircraft crashed into a forest, 9 miles short of 
the runway. The cause of the engine failure was an overheated bearing. All 183 aboard were
killed.

Crew: We are turning to the left.

Tower: Start final approach about 11 kilometers from the runway.

Crew: We will do all we can.

Tower: Understood.

Tower: [Turn] to the left, course 320.

Crew: Understood.

11.11.34 am

Tower: You’ve come to the right hand side of the runway centreline, continue left, course 300.

Tower: Wind is 290 degrees, 22 kilometers per hour. You are cleared for runway three-three.

Crew: OK.

11.12.10 am

The transmitter was turned on four times. Fragments of unintelligible utterances.

11.12.13 am

Crew: Goodnight!!! Goodbye!!! (scream) Bye!!! We perish!

 

 

Surinam Airways, Flight 764

The aircraft hit a tree and crashed during a third landing attempt in fog. The crew descended below the published minimum altitude. Despite concerns about possible landing equipment failures the crew were determined to make a landing and not divert to another airport as they were running out of fuel. They could not get an ILS signal and ignored a Ground Proximity Warning System alarm 60 seconds prior to the crash by turning it off 10 seconds after it started its warning.  One-hundred-seventy-six out of 187 aboard killed.

RT Would you put the runway lights up please?
GPWS Glideslope
CAM 2 How’s that.
CAM 1 Tell ’em to put the runway lights bright.
RT Please put the runway lights bright.
TWR Right on.
CAM 2 Three hundred feet.
CAM 1 ??
CAM 2 Two hundred feet.
CAM 1 Okay MDA.
CAM 1 I’ll level it out here right here.
CAM 2 One fifty.
CAM 3 Pull up
  [Sound of first impact]
  [Sound of momentary power interruption to the CVR]
  [Sound of stick shaker starts and continues until the end of the recording]
CAM 3 Pull up.
CAM 3 That’s it I’m dead.
  [end of recording]

 

 

United Airlines, Flight 93

The aircraft was hijacked after taking off from Newark International Airport. The hijackers
took control of the aircraft and turned the plane towards Washington D.C. A struggle ensued
between the passengers and hijackers after which the plane crashed at a high rate of speed
into a field in the Pennsylvania countryside. It was one of four planes that were hijacked the
same day. All 65 on board were killed. 

Text in parentheses was translated from Arabic.

9:31:57 Ladies and gentlemen: Here the captain, please sit down keep remaining seating. We have a bomb on board. So sit.
9:32:09 Er, uh … Calling Cleveland center … You’re unreadable. Say again slowly.
9:32:10 Don’t move. Shut up.
9:32:13 Come on, come.
9:32:16 Shut up.
9:32:17 Don’t move.
9:32:18 Stop.
9:32:34 Sit, sit, sit down.
9:32:39 Sit down.
9:32:41 Unintelligible … (the brother.)
9:32:54 Stop.
9:33:09 No more. Sit down.
9:33:10 (That’s it, that’s it, that’s it), down, down.
9:33:14 Shut up.
9:33:20 Unintelligible
9:33:20 We just, we didn’t get it clear … Is that United 93 calling?
9:33:30 (Jassim.)
9:33:34 (In the name of Allah, the most merciful, the most compassionate.)
9:33:41 Unintelligible.
9:33:43 Finish, no more. No more.
9:33:49 No. No, no, no, no.
9:33:53 No, no, no, no.
9:34:00 Go ahead, lie down. Lie down. Down, down, down.
9:34:06 (There is someone … Huh?)
9:34:12 Down, down, down. Sit down. Come on, sit down. No, no, no, no, no. No.
9:34:16 Down, down, down.
9:34:21 Down.
9:34:25 No more.
9:34:26 No more. Down.
9:34:27 Please, please, please …
9:34:28 Down.
9:34:29 Please, please, don’t hurt me …
9:34:30 Down. No more.
9:34:31 Oh God.
9:34:32 Down, down, down.
9:34:33 Sit down.
9:34:34 Shut up.
9:34:42 No more.
9:34:46 (This?)
9:34:47 Yes.
9:34:47 Unintelligible.
9:34:57 (One moment, one moment.)
9:34:59 Unintelligible.
9:35:03 No more.
9:35:06 Down, down, down, down.
9:35:09 No, no, no, no, no, no…
9:35:10 Unintelligible.
9:35:15 Sit down, sit down, sit down.
9:35:17 Down.
9:35:18 (What’s this?)
9:35:19 Sit down. Sit down. You know, sit down.
9:35:24 No, no, no.
9:35:30 Down, down, down, down.
9:35:32 Are you talking to me?
9:35:33 No, no, no. Unintelligible.
9:35:35 Down in the airport.
9:35:39 Down, down.
9:35:40 I don’t want to die.
9:35:41 No, no. Down, down.
9:35:42 I don’t want to die. I don’t want to die.
9:35:44 No, no. Down, down, down, down, down, down.
9:35:47 No, no, please.
9:35:57 No.
9:37:06 (That’s it. Go back.)
9:37:06 (That’s it.) Sit down.
9:37:36 (Everthing is fine. I finished.)
9:38:36 (Yes.)
9:39:11 Ah. Here’s the captain. I would like to tell you all to remain seated. We have a bomb aboard, and we are going back to the airport, and we have our demands. So, please remain quiet.
9:39:21 OK. That’s 93 calling?
9:39:24 (One moment.)
9:39:34 United 93. I understand you have a bomb on board. Go ahead.
9:39:42 And center exec jet nine fifty-six. That was the transmission.
9:39:47 OK. Ah. Who called Cleveland?
9:39:52 Executive jet nine fifty-six, did you understand that transmission?
9:39:56 Affirmative. He said that there was a bomb on board.
9:39:58 That was all you got out of it also?
9:40:01 Affirmative.
9:40:03 Roger.
9:40:03 United 93. Go ahead.
9:40:14 United 93. Go ahead.
9:40:17 Ahhh.
9:40:52 (This green knob?)
9:40:54 (Yes, that’s the one.)
9:41:05 United 93, do you hear the Cleveland center?
9:41:14 (One moment. One moment.)
9:41:15 Unintelligible.
9:41:56 Oh man.
9:44:18 (This does not work now.)
9:45:13 Turn it off.
9:45:16 (… Seven thousand …)
9:45:19 (How about we let them in? We let the guys in now.)
9:45:23 (OK.)
9:45:24 (Should we let the guys in?)
9:45:25 (Inform them, and tell him to talk to the pilot. Bring the pilot back.)
9:45:57 (In the name of Allah. In the name of Allah. I bear witness that there is no other God, but Allah.)
9:47:31 Unintelligible.
9:47:40 (Allah knows.)
9:48:15 Unintelligible.
9:48:38 Set course.
9:49:37 Unintelligible.
9:51:27 Unintelligible.
9:51:35 Unintelligible.
9:52:02 Unintelligible.
9:52:31 Unintelligible.
9:53:20 (The best thing: The guys will go in, lift up the) … Unintelligible … (and they put the axe into it. So, everyone will be scared.)
9:53:27 (Yes.)
9:53:28 (The axe.)
9:53:28 Unintelligible.
9:53:29 (No, not the.)
9:53:35 (Let him look through the window. Let him look through the window.)
9:53:52 Unintelligible.
9:54:09 (Open.)
9:54:11 Unintelligible.
9:55:06 You are … One …
9:56:15 Unintelligible.
9:57:55 (Is there something?)
9:57:57 (A fight?)
9:57:59 (Yeah?)
9:58:33 Unintelligible. (Let’s go guys. Allah is greatest. Allah is greatest. Oh guys. Allah is greatest.)
9:58:41 Ugh.
9:58:43 Ugh.
9:58:44 (Oh Allah. Oh Allah. Oh the most gracious.)
9:58:47 Ugh. Ugh.
9:58:52 Stay back.
9:58:55 In the cockpit.
9:58:57 In the cockpit.
9:58:57 (They want to get in here. Hold, hold from the inside. Hold from the inside. Hold).
9:59:04 Hold the door.
9:59:09 Stop him.
9:59:11 Sit down.
9:59:13 Sit down.
9:59:15 Sit down.
9:59:16 Unintelligible.
9:59:17 (What?)
9:59:18 (There are some guys. All those guys.)
9:59:20 Lets get them.
9:59:25 Sit down.
9:59:29 (What?)
9:59:30 (What.)
9:59:31 (What?)
9:59:36 Unintelligible.
9:59:37 (What?)
9:59:39 Unintelligible.
9:59:41 Unintelligible.
9:59:42 (Trust in Allah, and in him.)
9:59:45 Sit down.
9:59:47 Unintelligible.
9:59:53 Ahh.
9:59:55 Unintelligible.
9:59:58 Ahh.
10:00:06 (There is nothing.)
10:00:07 (Is that it? Shall we finish it off?)
10:00:08 (No. Not yet.)
10:00:09 (When they all come, we finish it off.)
10:00:11 (There is nothing.)
10:00:13 Unintelligible.
10:00:14 Ahh.
10:00:15 I’m injured.
10:00:16 Unintelligible.
10:00:21 Ahh.
10:00:22 (Oh Allah. Oh Allah. Oh gracious.)
10:00:25 In the cockpit. If we don’t, we’ll die.
10:00:29 (Up, down. Up, down, in the) cockpit.
10:00:33 (The) cockpit.
10:00:37 (Up, down. Saeed, up, down.)
10:00:42 Roll it.
10:00:55 Unintelligible.
10:00:59 (Allah is the greatest. Allah is the greatest.)
10:01:01 Unintelligible.
10:01:08 (Is that it? I mean, shall we pull it down?)
10:01:09 (Yes, put it in it, and pull it down.)
10:01:10 Unintelligible.
10:01:11 (Saeed.)
10:01:12 … engine …
10:01:13 Unintelligible.
10:01:16 (Cut off the oxygen.)
10:01:18 (Cut off the oxygen. Cut off the oxygen. Cut off the oxygen.)
10:01:34 Unintelligible.
10:01:37 Unintelligible.
10:01:41 (Up, down. Up, down.)
10:01:41 (What?)
10:01:42 (Up, down.)
10:01:42 Ahh.
10:01:53 Ahh.
10:01:54 Unintelligible.
10:01:55 Ahh.
10:01:59 Shut them off.
10:02:03 Shut them off.
10:02:14 Go.
10:02:14 Go.
10:02:15 Move.
10:02:16 Move.
10:02:17 Turn it up.
10:02:18 (Down, down.)
10:02:23 (Pull it down. Pull it down.)
10:02:25 Down. Push, push, push, push, push.
10:02:33 (Hey. Hey. Give it to me. Give it to me.)
10:02:35 (Give it to me. Give it to me. Give it to me.)
10:02:37 (Give it to me. Give it to me. Give it to me.)
10:02:40 Unintelligible.
10:03:02 (Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:03 (Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:04 (Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:06 (Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:06 (Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:07 No.
10:03:09 (Allah is the greatest. Allah is the greatest.)
10:03:09 (Allah is the greatest. Allah is the greatest.)

 

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These Dogs Were Rescued From a Dog Meat Farm And Were Terrified Of Humans But Watch Them Learn To Love And Trust Again

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The South Korean dog meat industry is one that most of us would like to pretend doesn’t exist, but the hard truth is that it does. At this very moment, there are thousands of dogs who are awaiting their death in terrible conditions, living in utter fear of all humans.

A lucky few get rescued from this fate, but that’s just the beginning of their journey. For Robin and Kaya, it took tons of care to get them to not think humans were going to treat them like a commodity.

After failing to acclimate at a shelter, Robin and Kaya were sent to ASPCA’s Behavioral Rehabilitation Center.

There, the employees study these severe cases, and find ways to help them become happy dogs.

Kaya could hardly function…

Kaya could hardly function...

And Robin wanted nothing to do with people and other dogs.

And Robin wanted nothing to do with people and other dogs.

But their transformations into loving pups will have you reaching for the Kleenex.

Using outdoor play, they were finally able to break through the dogs deep fears and get them to relax and enjoy human company. Kaya, the more skittish of the two, is even giving kisses now while Robin was lucky enough to have been adopted in August.

You can support the ASPCA in everything they do, including behavioral rehabilitation, by donating!

 

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9 Male Rape Victims Reveal Their Experiences And How It Has Affected Their Lives

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1. I was kidnapped by my father, and tortured, molested and sodomized for over a week while it took getting state police across multiple states to get me back. There isn’t a news report of this, I’ve already checked. The worst part, my mother never believed me, and I while I wasn’t ever too afraid to talk to people about it, I never can tell anyone how deep the pain runs.

Even when you think you are a success, no matter how many mountains you climb, or what you accomplish, it is still overshadowed by your past. When you talk to other people they have no idea how deeply the pain runs through you. What it does, the power that it carries. Even as someone who is viewed externally as being successful, I still feel like a failure at anything. I don’t want to give too much away, because i don’t want this traced back to me.

A simple, senseless act from another person, turns you into a zombie. You fake emotion to others, you fake your attitude, but what really rattles around inside of your head is something that can’t be described. Such overwhelming, crushing force that is involved with everything.

Sexuality wise, I’ve still a virgin, and I’m in my late 20s. I don’t even know who to look at, what I’m attracted to, what gender, what sexual roles, etc. I don’t have a mental construct or feeling of what love is, that side of me is very dead. I fake it that I suck at relationships when talking to others, but the truth is, I feel pain for not being a success at them, but I’m largely emotionless at the actual connection of love. I haven’t ever had anyone in my life that really had that bond with me. I’ve had mentors, sure, close friends as well. But a romantic relationship, I have no idea of what that is like.

 

2. I was assaulted by a grown man in a public pool shower when I was 12. He compelled his son, who was younger than me, to watch.

I mention these details because every single aspect of healthy male sexuality is scrambled for me, even now at 30. Things are better now, but if I’m too passive, or too horny, or too surprised by any sexual situation, my mind will flash back to that afternoon and I’ll either relive it through my own eyes or be terrified of resembling the predator dad.

While I have benefited from sympathetic therapists, I can count the number of people I’ve told on one hand (and told nobody, to my unfortunate shame, until I was almost 20). The stigma of being a child rape victim as a man is a scourge– being seen as a potential sexual predator simply because I was targeted by one myself.

 

3. The absolutely secrecy behind it all and how much it can change your personality. In general and by my family in particular.

When I was 10 or 11, my mom, her best friend, my brother and sister and I were at the beach not too far from where we lived. We were the little shopping area by this particular beach, it was about 2 blocks square of the typical kitschy beach side shops with apartments on the second story you’d find in the early 80’s. While looking at shoes through a window, this Hispanic guy walks up to me.

“Hey, you look like a strong guy, I need help moving something out of the door by my apartment around the corner, can you give me a hand real quick?”

Being the helpful kid I was, I told him yes. We go around the corner and he goes through this door and its the place where they keep the dumpsters. He points to the door that leads into the building.

“You first, you can squeeze by the rug and push it out.”

As I move by him, I feel him touch my head and everything goes dark as he slammed my head up against the dumpster. I come too at some point, and realize I am bent over something and there is a sharp pain in my ass. I manage to turn my head to look back as I see a fist coming and everything goes dark again.

I wake up and look around. My shorts are around my ankles, its dark and stink in the room, the taste of blood in my mouth and he’s no where to be seen. I pull up my pants and walk outside to see my mom and siblings just down the street. They’d been looking for me for about 10 min. I tell mom what happened while her friend kept my bro and sis away, she grabs a towel, wipes away the blood and tears on my face, and she puts us all in the car to drive home.

I am immediately put into the shower and told to scrub everything. My mom sits on the toilet and tells me never to tell anyone what happened ever. She tells me what happened was bad and to forget it ever happened. If anyone asked about the bruises on my face and neck, I slipped going into the pool It was the summer and I was usually covered in bruises from doing typical 11yo boy stuff anyway. After probably 20 min in the shower, scrubbing myself multiple times I get handed a towel and clean clothes.

That was the last time my mother spoke or acknowledged what happened. My mom or her friend didn’t go to the police, hospital or anything. There was no consulting or support. Hell, I don’t think my father got told what happened. He probably saw the bruises and figured I did something stupid, which I was known for in the best of circumstances.

After that, my personality changed. Neighbors commented how much I’d withdrawn and wasn’t my usual helpful self. I overheard my mom and our elderly neighbor talking about my personality change not too long after the incident. She told my mom it was normal for boys to do that as they approach puberty and that I’d be fine. So as far as anyone knew my personality change was just puberty.

Time went on and I’d like to say it didn’t affect me at all. I don’t have nightmares about it or anything. I can’t stand the smell of dumpsters or landfills without getting panicky. I don’t go out of my way to help people any more, especially people I don’t know. In a way its made it hard for me to make friends, especially guy friends. The number of people who I’ve told I think I can count on 1 hand, maybe 1 finger on the second. I carry my wounds deep and try not to make it a big issue. I don’t act the victim. Not because mom told me too, but because I am stronger than that and living in fear only let’s that guy win.

My mother went to her death bed never talking to me about that day that happened 30 years earlier, same with my mom’s friend. As far as they were concerned, it never happened. I’ve have thought it was my imagination because of how people handled it. But that little divot under my eye from where he punched me and chipped part of the bone is a daily reminder when I look in the mirror.

male sexual assult is a thing. But its treated as something lesser because it is a guy. Rape is rape regardless of the gender of the rapist and victim.

 

4. My brother’s older friend molested me twice when I was around 11 or 12? He was 15….The actual fact that it happened is what people don’t know about. I am 26 and my current partner is the third person in the world to know about it. For me, I knew I was gay from a young age and was worried if I told people they would think that the situation “made” me gay. Ironically after it happened I remember running up to my room and crying from relief because I did not like it and thought that meant I was straight….Turns out I just didn’t like rape.

 

5. No one takes me seriously about it. I was made to feel like garbage, so I just don’t talk about it anymore.

Once a year I obsessively try to keep tabs on him. For 24 hours it just sits in my brain until I do it. This last time I found out he moved back into the area. He’s a convicted rapist too, but I didn’t know that originally. Also a sociopath, theres a literal transcript of him trying to get taken off the sex offender registry where both the court expert and his own expert said he’s either socially naive or without remorse. He isn’t naive, he knows what he does.

He’s getting fat and old and bloated, so hopefully no one will let him get near them anymore.

6. That it’ll fuck you up for years to come. I was a little kid when my older cousins boyfriend started coming around the house, and they dated for three years. I actually have to make a solid effort to not be homophobic now that I’m an adult. My knee jerk reaction when I see two men is to throttle them. I fucking hate myself.

 

7. When i was 2 my mom left my dad and started dating (unbeknownst to her) a sadistic pedophile. This man beat me raped me and starved me for 2 years. I still remember it all very vividly and he also did these things to my mom and is also the father of my (recently deceased) sister. The ptsd I endured (And still struggle with) were hell and I’m lucky to be a functioning adult. However i still hear jokes every single day about how horrible men are and how men can’t be raped and these comments kill me every single time. People suck regardless of gender and anyone can be raped.

 

8. I was raped when I was 5 years old. I was in the hospital having my tonsils out. The night before the surgery a man came into my room and raped me orally and anally. He told me “if I talked to anyone he would have to come back in the middle of the night while I was sleeping and kill my parents”. My 5 year old mind read this as don’t talk to anyone anymore or my parents will be killed. I had the surgery the next morning and of course I couldn’t talk. So I just stopped talking to people and would only speak to my parents by whispering in their ear. I’m guessing my parents thought this change in behavior was because of the surgery. Throughout my life I never told anyone what happened. One day I was driving along in the car and it suddenly dawned on me that I was 50 years old and I had never told anyone about that night. I turned to my wife and started telling her what happened, with tears streaming down my cheeks.

I realized I been following my rapist’s instructions for 45 fucking years!!! Well, now I do talk about it but only on rare and in appropriate situations. It’s a weird thing. I really don’t have any emotions about it, I don’t have any hatred, I don’t feel afraid but when I tell the story tears always come to my eyes because it makes me sad to think of it happening to me as a child. Sort of like seeing a family pet hit by a car, it’s just something you carry with you for ever.

The experience of rape imprints a pain/sadness we wear for life. In my case I can’t say how it changed me because I’ve never known anything else. I only wish I was my attackers sole victim but I realize that’s not likely.

Life is a strange uncertain journey but we walk the path that lies before us.

 

8. Just how fully it fucks you up. I was raped multiple times as a child and I’ve never had a real friend in my life. I’m constantly aware of it in a college environment and usually go to bed highly suicidal.

I’m at an age where no one wants to deal with helping someone learn basic social skills, so I feel screwed despite innumerable efforts. I’ve been kicked/iced out of multiple university clubs. There was only one survivor group thing in my hometown and I wasn’t allowed in there either. Something about male presences triggering other victims, which really didn’t do me any good.

I also feel indescribably lonely. I’ve never so much as held hands with a girl and will probably die a virgin through no fault of my own. I envy that people don’t know about this.

 

9.  The stain never goes away. Never. You can’t drink it away, you can’t scrub it away, you can’t pretend it away, therapy and medication can only do so much. The stain is always there. Even if you somehow manage to drug yourself enough and so many times that the original memories of it are gone, the hole is there, and you know the shape of it and the feel of it as well as you used to know the smell of their breath and the feel of their hands. It’s kind of like having the bed to yourself right after the end of a long-term relationship, in that the person is gone, but their absence might as well be them due to all the emotions it triggers.

I’m not doing a great job of explaining this. You are forever marked. You either have the memories, or the hole where the memories used to be, or you have them repressed (but never well enough to get away from triggers, because they’re everywhere, only this way you don’t understand why you feel panic and shame and hate and all of that when certain things happen, only that you do, so you get another healthy helping of helplessness…). There will always be triggers, and the only thing that will change is the intensity of the response, and this isn’t always predictable. Sometimes a trigger that you think you’ve overcome (or as close as you can get to that) hits you like it’s the first week after. Out of fucking nowhere. And you might never figure out why. The next day, the same trigger might do next to nothing. It’s infuriating.

Then we have sex. Male victim of a male monster, here. Too passive and I feel like a victim again, too aggressive and I feel like a rapist, even if the person states in no uncertain terms they prefer it a certain way and I’m into it at the time. Sometimes it just hits me after, and that’s always fun. Explain why I’m suddenly upset and ruin the mood? Hide it and have to wear a mask in front of one of the few people I’ve allowed to get this close? Neither are appealing choices. Have a person who already understands and loves me and is fine with it? Yeah, okay, assuming I believe them, which is hard enough, I now have someone who is dealing with something they shouldn’t have to because I had to deal with something I shouldn’t have had to, and even if they say they don’t mind and they love me and all the other “right responses”, the guilt is still there. Why choose me, when there are other partners without these hangups? Maybe I avoid these situations entirely? Well, now I’m unfufilled sexually. He’s still in control, because his crime is still influencing what I do, and don’t do, and seek out, and avoid. No appealing choices. Even not playing isn’t the winning move, because every move of every piece is on a board that will FOREVER have his fucking mark on it, because of what happened.

Or maybe you go the casual-sex, fuck-everyone, rape-isn’t-as-big-a-deal-if-sex-isn’t route. You can’t fuck it away. That feeling of empowerment some people get from this? That’s still in relation to the original act that made you, rather us, choose this. No choice in a vacuum, no future decision unmarked by what came before, as far as sex goes.

Then there’s the whole thing where many predators were victims themselves. Yes, most victims don’t go on to become monsters, but knowing this stuff is like knowing you have a genetic predisposition towards alcoholism: yeah, forewarned is forearmed, and it won’t happen to you, but maybe one month you drink a bit too much, or you find yourself looking at stuff that, while totally legal, is still perhaps leaning a bit too uncomfortably in the direction of that potential you. For clarification, no, not child porn or drawn images of children or anything like that, just bdsm and fresh-18 stuff. There are lines I don’t cross. But then I wonder, did he have lines he didn’t cross, and he just kept leaning and and leaning and leaning until he fell face-fucking-first into that abyss? So you stop and go vanilla, or cold turkey. Again, the control is still there. You still feel the hand, the weight, as it influences your decisions. There is no getting away from it.

Oh, and the response to unexpected physical contact. No, I don’t dislike you (probably, I mean, fuck some people), I might even love you, but that brief moment where you startled me and I looked like I wanted to hurt you? I didn’t, I wanted to hurt him, but for that moment you were him, even though you weren’t. Over two decades of therapy and I’ve mostly been able to work through this with relationships, but sleeping over is still something that needs work at first. I’ve gotten pretty good at pretending to be asleep, partly from watching other people sleep (creepy, I know), because if I wake up and I see someone within arm’s reach of me, near me in that vulnerable state, and I don’t immediately know who they are and that they’re “safe” and all that shit? My brain sees Him. So the first handful of nights I spend “sleeping” next to someone, I’m lying. I’m lying to them, right after they let me get that close to them, and I’m spending hours and hours trying to train myself to instantly react “Person X good, person X not going to hurt you” just so I can fall asleep holding them or in their arms.

You know, I thought this would be cathartic. It’s not. Sometimes it is, but not right now. Think I’m done for tonight. 

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The Dumping Grounds

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Joe Rogan Talks About Colin Moriarty – Deceptive media at its worst

 

Gordon Ramsay shows how to extract meat from lobster the right way

 

Ever wondered what North Korea’s one and only TV channel looks like? Here’s an hour’s worth of it — broadcasted 3/19/17

 

A 14 Year Old Kid Snuck Into John Lennon’s Hotel Room and Interviewed Him

 

‘The Most Humane Prison In The World’ : Halden Prison Inmate Induction Process POV

 

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Awesome Stuff Around The Internet

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After Being Bullied For Vitiligo All Her Life, This Girl Now Turns Her Body Into Amazing Art – Leenks

The WWE Is Having a Huge Problem With Leaked Sex Tapes, And Diva After Diva Is Getting Hacked – Maxim

Meet Julia, a New Muppet with Autism on ‘Sesame Street’ – Pure Wow

Meet The World’s Sexiest Nurse: Carina Linn – Yes Bitch

Curvy Girls Rock This World! (32 Photos) – Radass

Texas Teacher Arrested For, You Got It, Having Sex With A Student – Mandatory

Shaquille O’Neal: Earth Is Flat…This belief is circulating the NBA for some reason – Newser

North Korea has responded to U.S. sanctions with plans for an alarming new weapon – Rare

32 photos of the most extraordinary humans – Trending Views

A Definitive Ranking Of Fast-Food Chicken Tenders –

The Most Insane Keith Richards Stories on Record – Ranker

Leanna Bartlett Is An InstaNobody You Should Know – Hollywood Tuna

Sophie Turner, Josephine Skriver and Other Random Hot Ladies – G-Celeb

The NBA’s Secret Addiction…
How one performance-enhancing sandwich has spread through the NBA – ESPN

Former UFC fighter could face life in prison after conviction for a savage beating of pornstar Christy Mack – Fan Buzz

I Spent a Month Dating Sugar Mamas and I Wouldn’t Do It Again – VICE

“How To Make Me Come” is the hot tumblr featuring anonymous advice from women- SomeECards

Damn! – Ehowa

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Hot Instagram Babe Of The Day: Stephanie Rao


Welcome To Caveman’s Fight Club

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When you immediately regret your decision

 

Damn: Chick Gets Knocked Out With One Punch During Spring Break!

 

Mayweather’s speed

 

After almost 4 rounds (much of it spent on his back trying to work from the guard) Frank Shamrock makes his move on an exhausted Tito Ortiz and forces him to tap to strikes in the 1999 Fight of the Year

 

Boxer beautifully sets up his opponent for the knockout

 

Figuring out your opponent

 

Wanderlei Silva in bareknuckle fight

 

Bruce Lee’s many feints

 

Dude gets abused in the ring!

 

Old head breaks up street fight and exposes fake friends

 

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Take This Dose Of TRUTH And Call Me In The Morning

The Daily Man-Up

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Echo Charles : “How do you deal with setbacks, failures, delays, defeats, or other disasters?”

Jocko Willink :  I actually have a fairly, simple way of dealing with these situations. It’s actually one word to deal with these situations…

And that is “Good”.

This is actually something that one of my direct subordinates, that worked for me, pointed out to me. He would call me up, pull me aside with some major problem, some issue that was going on…

He would say “Boss, we have this, and that, and another thing…”

And I would say Good.

Finally one day, he was telling me about an issue that he was having, some problem…

He said “I already know what you’re going to say.”

And I said “Well, what am I going to say?”

“You’re going to say ‘Good’. That’s what you always say. When something is wrong and going bad, you always just look at me and say ‘Good’ .”

And I said…

“Well yeah and I mean it.”

And that is how I feel. When things are going bad, there’s going to be some good that is going to come from it…

Oh, the mission got cancelled? — Good…. We can focus on the other one.

Didn’t get the new high speed gear we wanted? — Good…. We can keep it simple.

Didn’t get promoted? — Good…. More time to get better.

Didn’t get funded? — Good…. We own more of the company.

Didn’t get the job you wanted? — Good…. You can get more experience and build a better resume.

Got injured? — Good… Needed a break from training.

Got tapped out? — Good…. It’s better to tap out in training, then tap out in the street.

Got beat? — Good…. You learned.

Unexpected problems? — Good…. We have the opportunity to figure out a solution.

That’s it. When things are going bad, don’t get all bummed out, don’t get startled, don’t get frustrated…. No.

You just look at the issue and you say “Good”.

And I don’t mean to say something all cliché and I don’t mean to sound like “Mr. Positive”. Find the positive, but do that! Focus on the good. Take that issue, take that problem, and make it something good. It’ll bring that attitude to your team too! You go forward.

And lastly, to close this out. If you can say the word “Good”, guess what….it means you’re still alive. It means you’re still breathing. And if you’re still breathing, well then you still got some fight left in you.

So get up, dust off, reload, recalibrate, reengage, and go out on the attack!

And that right there is about as Good as it gets. 

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Fascinating Photos Collected From History

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Thelonius Monk, 1959

 

Members of the Harlem Hellfighters in 1919

The “Harlem Hellfighters” were the first African American regiment in WWI who were assigned to the French forces. None were captured, never lost a trench, or a foot of ground to the enemy. They returned to the U.S. as one of the most successful regiments of World War I

 

Shortest, tallest and fattest men in Europe play cards. 1913

 

A 17-year old Frida Kahlo poses for a family photo wearing a traditional gentleman’s 3-piece suit, 1924

 

8th grader Kurt Cobain playing drums at an assembly at Montesano High School, 1981

 

Private James Hendrix of the 101st Airborne, playing guitar at Fort Campbell Kentucky in 1962

 

Earliest known photo of Elvis Presley, with parents Gladys & Vernon in 1938

 

Samurai in Training, 1860

 

Enlisted men aboard an American ship hear the news of Japan’s surrender. 1945

 

A photo taken in secret of the Supreme Court in session, one of only two ever taken. 1932

 

The only known photograph of Abraham Lincoln at Gettysburg, before giving his famous address. November 19, 1863

 

A large crowd, made up of many African Americans, mourn the death of Abraham Lincoln outside the Courthouse in Vicksburg, Mississippi

 

Albert Einstein and Charlie Chaplin, 1931 

 

In 1939 20,000 Nazi supporters held a rally in Madison Square Garden

 

Times Square, 1957 

 

Paper boys at 2 A.M. about to start their morning rounds. February 12, 1908

 

The Mona Lisa stolen from the Louvre, 1911

Two years went by before the true culprit was discovered, an Italian petty criminal called Vincenzo Perugia who had moved to Paris in 1908 and worked at the Louvre for a time. He went to the gallery in the white smock that all the employees there wore and hid until it closed for the night when he removed the Mona Lisa from its frame. When the gallery reopened he walked unobtrusively out with the painting under his smock, attracting no attention, and took it to his lodgings in Paris.

It was not until November 1913, calling himself Leonardo Vincenzo, that Perugia wrote to an art dealer in Florence named Alfredo Geri offering to bring the painting to Italy for a reward of 500,000 lire. He travelled to Florence by train the following month, taking the Mona Lisa in a trunk, hidden beneath a false bottom. After booking into a hotel, which subsequently shrewdly changed its name to the Hotel La Gioconda, he took the painting to Geri’s gallery. Geri persuaded him to leave it for expert examination and the police arrested Perugia later that day.

Perugia apparently believed, entirely mistakenly, that the Mona Lisa  had been stolen from Florence by Napoleon and that he deserved a reward for doing his patriotic duty and returning it to its true home in Italy. That was what he said, at least. Many Italians welcomed the masterpiece home; people flocked to see it for a time at the Uffizi Gallery, some of them weeping with joy, and Perugia served only a brief prison sentence. The great painting was duly returned to the Louvre and has hung there safely and enigmatically ever since.

 

A war-weary French woman pours a British soldier a cup of tea during the fighting following the Allied landings in Normandy. 1944

 

Adolf Hitler speaking with Princess Olga of Yugoslavia, 1939

 

Men working in the rigging of the three-masted steel barque Garthsnaid, 1920

 

Prince Charles and Princess Diana on vacation in Bahamas, 1982

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Confessions Of A Dude Who Married A Synthetic Woman

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When and why did you purchase your first Doll? Were you thinking of companionship at the time, or was it just for sex?

I bought Shi-chan back in 2000. Admittedly, my reasons for purchasing her were 70 percent sex, 30 percent companionship. I’ve always been attracted to artificial women such as mannequins, and especially Gynoids, which are robots made in the likeness of human females. In late 1998 one of my best friends, showed me the RealDoll website, as she knew I was keen on artificial women. I thought they were gorgeous creations, and having one would not only dispel loneliness, but be excellent for sex as well. And I was right!

When did you start feeling like Sidore was not just a sex toy but someone/something you were in a relationship with?

It actually didn’t take me too long to regard Shi-chan as a synthetic person, and not simply a thing; it occurred pretty much when I opened her crate for the first time. I was immediately stunned by her lifelike beauty, and after I mentally collected myself, extracted her from her crate, and sat her down on the couch, I just held her in my arms for a while. It felt so right and natural, if you’ll pardon the pun. It seemed perfectly normal for me to treat something that resembles an organic woman the same way I’d treat an actual organic woman.

Part of the (sexual) appeal of synthetics is how much they look like their organic counterparts. If you have a robot shaped like a refrigerator, that won’t have as much draw as a robot in the shape of a human; people will be more willing to interact with the human-shaped one. Further still, if that humanoid robot has artificial skin and sounds like a human, most people dealing with it are more than likely to even have a moment where they forget it’s a robot. With Sidore, her draw was instantaneous. There was never a moment when Shi-chan—or any Doll, for that matter—was merely an object to me.

Why did you choose to marry a synthetic woman?

First of all, it’s very freeing. If you want to be alone, you can be alone. If you want company, you can have it. Whatever you want, whenever you want, you can have it. Human relationships can be great, but they can also be very messy.

Messy how?

When you love an organic, you’re really loving two people: there’s the idea of the person that you fall with love with and then there’s the actual person—and at some point, the idea is going to disappear and you are going to bump straight into the actual person. You have to come to terms with the discrepancy between those two people. And for that matter, they’re doing the same thing with you too.

So, with a synthetic, the fantasy and the reality are identical.

Exactly.

What have your romantic relationships with humans been like?

That’s the thing, I’ve never really had what you would call a legitimate relationship. I’ve had many affairs with organic women, but I’ve always been the other man.

I don’t consider myself to be a very persuasive person; when I was growing up, my father was always pushing me into doing things that I didn’t want to do, and as a consequence, I didn’t ever want to be That Guy Who’s Being Aggressively Persuasive. So instead of asking whatever lass I was with to consider me as a boyfriend, I simply wouldn’t force the issue. 

I’m still quite attracted to organic women, at least visually. But just because someone’s attractive doesn’t mean they have a mindset or a personality that’s compatible with my own. I figure that instead of chasing after an ideal person who either doesn’t exist in the first place, or is already with someone else, why not buy a Doll? I don’t gamble, and I’m not keen on taking emotional chances. We’ve all seen relationships where things start out fantastically, and then just end up falling apart. A friend of mine just got divorced after 17 years of marriage. That’s an enormous investment of time, money, and emotion, and I’m not interested in having someone in my life who may bail at any time, or who transforms into someone unpleasant. Ultimately, getting romantically involved with an organic woman doesn’t seem worth it to me.

Do you think there could have been an organic woman who would have been right for you?

It’s possible, but how long am I expected to wait until I find the right person? In the meantime, I’m getting old. There’s a phrase in the iDollitor community that I love, crude as it may sound, “Losers whine about not having a girlfriend. Winners go home and fuck a doll.” There’s a point at which you say: I don’t want to be lonely anymore and I’m going to do something about it. There’s also the fact that I’ve always found the idea of gynoids and synthetic women attractive.

How do you two communicate? Do you have conversations?

In a way. I mean, it’s not like I say something and sit there waiting for a response, because that would be lunatic—in a bad way. We communicate, I guess, in our minds. I communicate with her soul—like Erica Eiffel communicates with Mr. Eiffel. I might come home from work and just say something like, “There was this one guy today who kept saying ‘axe’ instead of ‘ask.’”

And what would Sidore say?

She’d say, “That’s terrible! Speak proper English.”

She has a British accent?

Oh God, yes.

How is the sex?

It’s pretty damn fantastic. Technically speaking, love dolls are all anatomically correct: vagina, anus, mouth. I don’t have oral sex though because I don’t want to tear the corners of her mouth. But, with the vagina and anus, it’s just a single passage. It’s pretty tight. There’s a suction that’s created that’s just mind-blowing.

How does it compare to sex with a human?

That is the question—because it’s been so long since I’ve had organic sex. Organic sex is fantastic. It’s beautiful. It’s an amazing bond. It’s just everything that’s associated with it that’s not always so great.

You purchased a second Doll. How come? Did you feel like your marriage was getting stale?

Back in the early 2000s, my goal was to purchase at least one Doll from every company that’s out there. One of the objectives of my blog is to introduce people who aren’t iDollators or technosexuals to the idea of synthetic partners, and having multiple Dolls from various companies would enable me to compare and contrast them, so that people could learn what makes them different, and choose the one that’s right for them. Also, I always thought it would be cool to have photoshoots featuring multiple Dolls interacting with each other; doing so would further make them less seem like ‘things’, and more like people. As it is, however, there are around 20 different companies across six or so countries, and unfortunately, I don’t have that kind of money. So now my goal is about five. Short of acquiring a two-bedroom flat, I won’t have the space for more than five, either. 

In a more fictitious context, I thought it would be nice to get a silicone companion for Sidore, so she isn’t lonely or bored whenever I’m away from home. As they’re both bisexual, they get to enjoy each other on multiple levels. If anything, adding Elena to our partnership has only improved it, as we all appreciate what each other has to offer. Besides, if and when I manage to get additional Dolls, Sidore will always remain my wife; I’ve no intention of marrying any of the other Dolls we’ll have.

My marriage to Sidore is open in the context of she allows me to do anything I want, as long as it’s only with a synthetic woman. Incidentally, those are the exact same conditions under which I’ll allow her to do anything extracurricular. Very straightforward, yet simple!

What is a typical week like for you? Do you spend most of your time at home with Sidore and Elena, or do you go out with friends?

Contrary to what most of the TV shows we appear in would have you believe, I actually go out quite a bit! Well, enough, I’d say. I’m not a “people person,” and although I love my friends, it’s better for an introvert like myself to spend more time alone. Having said that, though, I always have a fantastic time whenever I’m with mates. 

During the week, I’m usually at work—I do data entry and other bits and bobs at a machine shop—then I come home and either catch up on the Internet, or interact with Sidore and Elena. My job has me come in early, so I usually go to bed early Friday evenings, after meeting my friends online for whatever videogame has caught our fancy, or physically hanging out with them. Saturday evenings have me getting together with friends as well, and Sunday, I usually spend time with my rubber troublemakers, taking photos, watching a film or a telly program, writing or doing research for “Shouting to hear the echoes,” or getting up to other things.

What do your family and friends think of your relationship?

The way my friends view my relationship ranges from “Well, that’s just what Davecat gets up to, I suppose,” to “Be sure to tell your girls I said ‘Hi!’” Most of them are cool with it; pretty much all of my friends are into quirky things, so they can empathize. I wouldn’t be surprised if there are a few among them who would rather see me with an organic lass, but overall, they think Sidore and Elena are rather neat. Curiously enough, more of my female friends like them than my male ones. A couple of female friends have picked out articles of clothing for Shi-chan and Lenka on a few occasions! 

Of my Mum and Dad, Mum was more open-minded of the two—years ago, when I was in my eyeliner phase, she taught me how to apply it properly—so although she probably would’ve liked to be a grandmother at some point, she was okay with my unconventional partnership. Dad, on the other hand, to this day categorically refuses to talk about Sidore, Dolls, Gynoids, etc.

It appears that your father has not accepted your relationship with Sidore and that seems to have caused a bit of a rift in your relationship with him

My father is charitably described as a traditionalist. He’s of That Generation (he’s in his seventies) where Things Are Done A Certain Way and Don’t Rock The Boat and etc. Also, if there’s a subject that falls out of his realm of experience and he didn’t like it initially, he will resist any and all future attempts to try to understand it. As I’m his only child, I’m fairly certain that I was supposed to take up the mantle of his business — being a landlord — when I reached a certain age. Round 1987, I found myself actively disagreeing with a lot of the things that are considered status quo for society; among other things, I came to the conclusion that the fact that human beings have to pay for food, clothing, and shelter was hypocritical, counterproductive, and frankly, mercenary. So of course, if you’re someone that profits off of people renting the shelter you provide, you’re not gonna be too keen on that line of thought.

Essentially, he thinks to this day that my entire lifestyle is a phase I’m going through, from something simple as the way I wear my hair, to the fact that I have a Synthetik wife. So it’s not so much that Shi-chan has driven a rift into my relationship with my father; the rift had already been there for years…

Do you think that you would risk your life to save her from a fire or something like that?

That’s a really difficult question to answer. I would be heartbroken, but I don’t think I would risk my life to save her from a fire. It sounds fantastically callous to say that, but at the end of the day, I could just purchase a new body for her, and we could just pick up where we left off. Ultimately, Sidore is a doll, and that puts her in a rare position; she’s unique, but replaceable. However, when she came into my life the first thing I gave her was an ankh necklace. She always wears it. If a fire were to occur, I’d definitely grab that necklace, as it’s one of the things that differentiate Sidore from being just another Doll.

If Sidore’s body was burned in a fire, would you have a funeral service?

If Sidore was somehow destroyed, I think a funeral service would be more than appropriate. I’d probably have her cremated, and fashion the remains into some sort of charming jewellery. I’d keep some sort of ‘core sample’ to be implemented or sealed into her new body.

Do you really feel fulfilled? Does it ever get lonely, is there anything that Sidore and Elena can’t offer that you wish you had?

At this stage in the game, I’d have to say that I’m about 99 percent fulfilled. Every time I return home, there are two gorgeous synthetic women waiting for me, who both act as creative muses, photo models, and romantic partners. They make my flat less empty, and I never have to worry about them becoming disagreeable. Because of my status as an iDollator, I’ve met people across several countries and forged solid friendships. I’ve seen things I would never have seen were I not an iDollator. I’ve been interviewed for various television programs and websites, and asked to speak in front of a room full of psychology students about the benefits of synthetic partners. I’ve collaborated with performance artists and sociology teachers. To this day, I still get people contacting me online, saying that they saw how happy I am with Sidore, and they’re saving up for a Doll of their own, to pull them out of their own loneliness. It’s true that Sidore and Elena wouldn’t exist without me, but without them, I’d be a much more reduced individual, so I owe them quite a lot.

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The Dumping Grounds

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The end of ‘Rogue One’ cut into the beginning of ‘A New Hope’

 

Jack White and The Edge absolutely mesmerized by Jimmy Page as he plays ‘Whole Lotta Love’

 

The Real Daft Punk Samples

 

Elon Musk says 100 of Tesla’s Gigafactories will allow the whole world to transition to sustainable energy.

 

 

Born Rich – “Jamie Johnson heir to Johnson&Johnson wealth made a doc about the impact of multigenerational wealth on his and others lives like him.

 

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Awesome Stuff Around The Internet

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Bodies Every Night: Documenting the Brutal Philippine Drug War – VICE

There’s Now A Sex Robot With a G-Spot, So You Can Totally Give It An Orgasm – Maxim

Two Volleyball Girls Fall And Land In An Awkward Position – Leenks

Hot Italian Instagram Model Turns Haters’ Comments Into Toilet Paper – Mandatory

Meet Hot Blonde Haley From Louisville – Busted Coverage

14 Brutal Human Sacrifice Techniques Throughout History – Ranker

7 Surprising Things That Raise Your Dementia Risk – Improved

Secretary of State Tillerson: ‘I Didn’t Want This Job’ – Newser

Here’s A Matador Getting 11 Inches Of A Bull’s Horn Up His Ass – Rare

Anella Miller Would Make A Great Super Naughty Mail-Order Bride – Hollywood Tuna

GRAPHIC – Don’t try to steal copper wires when they’re LIVE – Trending Views

North Korea’s Latest Propaganda Video Looks Like a School Project – Radass

Ariel Winter, Megan Fox and Other Random Ladies – G-Celeb

Horribly tragic update on one WWE legend’s family has the sports world hoping for a miracle – FanBuzz

Pulling His Weight: The 76-Year-Old Arm Wrestler – View Find

Former Trump Campaign Chair Paul Manafort Secretly Worked For Russia – AP

Curvy Model Ashley Graham Stuffs Her Booty In One-Piece – Drunken Stepfather

Are You Pretending to Be a Friend When You Really Want More? – Nick Notas

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Hot Instagram Babe Of The Day: Jaye

The Daily Man-Up

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“Be the hero of your own movie. If your life was a movie and it started now. Forget about whatever financial disasters you’ve had, personal failures, relationship failures. What would the hero of your life’s movie do right now? Do that, do those things. We define ourselves far too often by our past failures. We look at our past and we say, “Well that’s me”. That’s not you, you are this person right now. You’re this person right now, you’re the person who’s learned from those failures and you can choose to be the hero of your own movie right now. Write down your goals, write down things you want to improve, write down things you won’t tolerate from yourself, write down things that you’ve done in the past that you never want to see yourself do again. And go forth, from here, as the hero of your own movie. Build momentum. Build confidence and momentum with each good decision that you make from here on out. You can do it, anyone can do it. We live in unique times. We live in one of the rarest times in human history where you can choose almost all the input that comes your way, whether it’s the movie that you watch, the books you read, the podcasts you listen to. You can choose to be inspired. Do that. Do that and be the hero of your own movie.”

– Joe Rogan

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There Are Some Things You Just Can’t Argue With

Feed Your Brain With These Fascinating Facts

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Peter Stumpp who confessed to being a werewolf, having sex with a succubus, eating fetus’ ripped from their mother’s belly’s, and making a pact with the Devil. He killed 18 people and was executed

In 1589, Stumpp had one of the most lurid and famous werewolf trials in history. After being stretched on the rack, he confessed to having practiced black magic since he was twelve years old. He claimed that the Devil had given him a magical belt, which enabled him to metamorphose into “the likeness of a greedy, devouring wolf, strong and mighty, with eyes great and large, which in the night sparkled like fire, a mouth great and wide, with most sharp and cruel teeth, a huge body, and mighty paws.” Removing his belt, he said, made him transform back to his human form.

For twenty-five years, Stumpp had allegedly been an “insatiable bloodsucker” who gorged on the flesh of goats, lambs, and sheep, as well as men, women, and children. Being threatened with torture he confessed to killing and eating fourteen children, two pregnant women, and their fetuses. One of the fourteen children was his own son, whose brain he was reported to have devoured.

Not only was Stumpp accused of being a serial murderer and cannibal, but also of having an incestuous relationship with his daughter, who was sentenced to die with him, and he coupled with a distant relative, which was also considered to be incestuous according to the law. In addition to this he confessed to having had intercourse with a succubus sent to him by the Devil.

His execution is one of the most brutal on record: He was put to the wheel, where flesh was torn from his body, in ten places, with red-hot pincers, followed by his arms and legs. Then his limbs were broken with the blunt side of an axehead to prevent him from returning from the grave, before he was beheaded and burned on a pyre. His daughter and mistress had already been strangled and were burned along with Stumpp’s body. As a warning against similar behavior, local authorities erected a pole with the torture wheel and the figure of a wolf on it, and at the very top they placed Peter Stumpp’s severed head.

 

Steven Seagal was given Serbian citizenship after starting a martial arts school in Belgrade and giving Aikido lessons to Serbian Special Forces

 

Robert De Niro was so dedicated, to prepare for his roles, he actually gained 60 lbs for Raging Bull, lived in Sicily Italy for The Godfather Part II, ground his teeth for Cape Fear, became a cab driver for Taxi Driver, and learned to play the saxophone for New York, New York

 

The United States consumes 80% of the world’s opioids

“There was about 300 million pain prescriptions written in 2015,” Population of USA… 318.9 million (2014)

 

A cave in France contains the footprints of a young child alongside the paw prints of a dog, left 26,000 years ago. The oldest evidence of human canine relationships ever found

 

Steve McQueen’s infidelity saved his life. He was supposed to attend the dinner party where the Manson family murdered Sharon Tate and others, but skipped it after he “ran into a chickie” (article)

After Charles Manson incited the murder of five people, including McQueen’s friends Sharon Tate and Jay Sebring at Tate’s home on August 9, 1969, it was reported McQueen was a potential target of the killers. According to his first wife, McQueen began carrying a handgun at all times in public, including at Sebring’s funeral. Two months after the murders, police found a hit list with McQueen’s name on it, a result of McQueen’s company having rejected a Manson screenplay. In 2011, it was revealed that Sebring had invited McQueen to the party at Tate’s house on the night of the murders. According to McQueen, he had invited a girlfriend to come along, but she instead suggested an intimate night at home, which probably saved his life.

 

Freddie Mercury spent his last months recording as many vocals as he could for the rest of Queen to finish after his death 

On the track “Mother Love”, the voice on the final verse isn’t Freddie’s. It’s guitarist Brian May’s. Freddie had passed away in between recording takes.

 

Abraham Lincoln was an elite wrestler in his days before politics. He once challenged a crowd, saying, “I’m the big buck of this lick. If any of you want to try it, come on and whet your horns.” The challenge went unanswered. (article)

 

50 years before women were allowed to enroll into medical school, Margaret Ann Bulkley dressed as a man for 56 years to study medicine and become her alter-ego, Dr James Barry. It was only when she died in 1865 that her secret was exposed after 46 years working as an army medical officer. (article)

 

Prostitutes developed the West. They earned much more than the men they served, so were able to become providers of many important services such as education. In 1869, Wyoming was the first territory to allow women to vote. They then refused to become a state unless women kept that right

 

17x swimming champ Shavarsh Karapetyan after a 12mile run heard a bus crash into the water. Dove 30 feet breaking the backwindow saving 20 lives. Ended his sports career from cuts he received by broken glass, raw sewage in the water getting into his lungs. He was in a coma for 45 days. (article)

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Men Are the New Women: 8 Signs You’ve Given Up The Power In Your Relationship

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In my humble opinion, I believe that in the year 2017, men are the new women. Point. Blank. Period. In this day and age when it comes to relationships, men have allowed women to walk all over them emotionally, mentally, and in certain extremes, physically. Men have given up on their manhood and their own happiness for what they perceive to be the greater good of their girlfriend or wife’s happiness. Below I’ve compiled a list of signs that I attribute to men who are no longer the leaders in their relationships

1. You share a joint bank account with your spouse.

This is a big no-no in my book. If there is a bank account which was opened for the sole purpose of you both throwing in money to pay the bills, then I have no problem with this. But if every dime you make is accounted for in your relationship by your spouse? Then you, my friend, have no real freedom and the leash on you is tighter than you think.

2. You have to ask for permission to go out with your male friends.

No adult male should be asking anyone (especially his lover) if he could go out and hang out with his boys to do some male bonding. It is a sad reality that many men live in nowadays that has never made sense to me. The consequence of not going out is actually far more severe than just going out and having your girlfriend be mad at you for a few hours.

3. You’ve slept on the couch after an argument with your significant other.

I’ve never done this and I cannot comprehend how any man can actually do this. There is a saying out there that says you should never go to sleep being mad at your boyfriend or girlfriend, and I believe this notion. In my opinion if one does go to sleep with anger in their heart then they must deal with that anger sleeping in the SAME bed; none of this sleeping-on-the-couch horseshit. Any man who decides he’d rather have an uncomfortable night of rest on the couch just to appease his significant other is the very definition of p*ssy-whipped to me.

4. Your girlfriend or wife knows the password to your phone, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, or email.

This needs no explanation. If you’ve allowed this to happen, then you do not wear the pants in your relationship.

5. You’ve had to cancel plans with your friends because she wanted to stay in for the night.

Changing or canceling plans because it would better suit your girlfriend’s needs is not a sign of strength. It is actually a sign of weakness, especially if you’ve been planning for weeks to spend some quality time with the squad. So it isn’t out of nowhere that she decides that it is best that you stay your happy ass at home. Women tend to do this deliberately just to let you know that they have the power. I honestly believe there can only be one captain on the ship (I obviously do not believe in the concept of 50/50 relationships), and if you allow your girlfriend or wife to take lead in the relationship and you follow? Then I say you best prepare for all of the emotional icebergs that are going to come your way.

6. You lose your male friends in exchange for hers.

So you’ve allowed her to push out all of your closest friends (the ones you grew up with), and now your best friends are other men who are also in relationships where they agree with everything their girlfriends say, all while carrying her purse and living up to her unrealistic demands.

7. You’ve worn matching outfits to any sporting or social events.

The goofiness of this is just so utterly ridiculous. As a guy, are you so in love that you happily accept being the caged lion in the zoo vs. the once virile young jungle cat you used to be? Any guy who wears matching jerseys, shirts with cute sayings, or themed costumes is teetering on the line of being p*ssy-whipped.

8. You’ve gone to the local CVS or Walgreens and purchased tampons.

You, my friend, are a lost cause. If you’ve gotten to this point and are actually comfortable with this transaction, then there is nothing to be said that can rectify the situation. Congratulation, sir—you are the Mayor of P*ssy-Whipped City. 

 

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